I want to change

The plan was organization...the result was mommy meltdown. I have not blogged in several days because yours truly was having a full fledged emotional breakdown. It was pretty crazy, no pun intended. I know that in the Bible, Paul talked about the thorn in his flesh. I don't know what his was, but mine is the endless striving to be PERFECT. Why, why, why do I think that perfection is even something that can be achieved I will never know. How on earth does one change their mind; change their inner workings?